||[Dec. 19th, 2009|01:28 pm]
|||||Dirty Little Secret||]|
Last night I got to do something that was tons of fun. My roommate Dave works for Blizzard and last night was their Christmas party. After much begging and because Dave was going to go alone anyways, I got to tag along as his +1. It was a formal event so I got to put on my new 12$ dress and make myself look like a princess. It was loads of fun.
There was karaoke, dancing, really shitty music, and a huge hotel ball room full of gaming nerds. It was really exciting. Kind of like prom only without the girls crying in the hall ways and no one was being mean...I mean, come on; it was a room full of gamers. So anyways, I got to eat delicious food, dance with people I didn't know, and just have a good time for once.
This season has been very rough on me. Between moving back to Texas and working shitty jobs all the damn time along with my hatred for the holidays anyways, I just have been feeling really discouraged. I never get to go anywhere or do anything because I don't know anybody here, really and because I work so freakin' much that I never have any time. It has been really lonely in Austin and I have had some pretty down moments.
I had to go see a counselor because of some of my actions lately and my brother and Shauna made me go. I guess it helped but I still feel depressed.
Which is why last night was so much fun!! I got to feel like a human again. I got to actually interact with people and see people I haven't seen in forever, and just get out of the house and my work place. And this post wouldn't be complete with out me making my narcissistic comment: I looked very VERY pretty last night and got a huge ego boost from being a goddess amongst the world of warcraft nerd boys. hahahaha. Sometimes, it feels good to be reminded that you are a pretty girl. I haven't felt good about my self in a while. But last night I had on my red strapless dress with the black lace, my hair straight and clean, my make up done just right, my dancing shoes, and my Hello Kitty ear rings! Because as pretty as I was let's face it...it's not really me to dress up without something being slightly off and well...I wore my formal wear with my silly hello kitty ear rings.
I had a really fun time for the first time in a super long while so it was nice. Apparently we are dressing up for my birthday party as well...Shauna planned something big but I have no idea what other than that the attire is formal/cocktail and that karaoke will be involved!
I know no one really cares about that stuff but like I said, sometimes you just need an ego boost and to share your fun with someone...even if they don't really care. I looked amazing and had tons of fun.
Pictures to come soon.